My Earthday!
The Roots are going to be @ the Tabernacle on my birthday!!! I wish for tickets, I wish for tickets, I wish for tickets (as I close my eyes and click my heels)!!!! That would rock...the last time I saw them in concert was in high school on the Smokin Grooves tour! What the heck!!! I wanna go, I wanna go! So, if anyone wants to check out the Roots, here's the heads up! They're gonna be in Atlanta on my Earthday rockin the house, dope boy fresh, doing the wop, and makin folks wanna spice up their two steps! *sigh* Ok, that is all...over and out. Kisses, hugs, kugs folks...*muah*
Sending light and love...
Ayana
I carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
By E. E. Cummings
I'm sending to all of my loves the most smooth and juicy, relentless, aching, intense, sweet, magical, and genuine love that exists...
Venting...(My Journey Home)
Bury me deep, spread me thin, share me not, keep me now, hug me still, see me clear, hear me pure, know me true, love me real... I'm tired now. I'm weary tonight and I want to go home. I'm tired of disappointments and being unappreciated. I wonder how many times one person can endure being abused, misunderstood, treated badly, or given less than they deserve before they retreat...
My sister, L', she told me that my love of love delights her...I do love love and loving love comes at a price...It's not easy because that love never goes unchallenged. I pray to meet and keep a living, breathing realization of what I yearn for...a love that looks, feels, tastes, and drips what I see when I see love. I don't know why people in my life have tested my commitment to that love. I love love so deeply that even when those that I love so deeply tear me apart, I fight my mind and I love them still...sometimes harder. That pain makes me want to love them so much that they aren't able to be anything other than divine. I want to love them into devotion. I want them to be faithful to love, purity, humility, and me...You know, sometimes it really feels unfair for me to be blessed with this type of heart. The heart that loves so hardcore even when it doesn't feel reciprocated. It feels like there is no safe place and it takes a lot of faith to keep loving when you don't feel loved by those that you love. I do love love and I look forward to the day when I can share freely all the love that I hold in my hands that shake and stroke weary heads filled with fear, my eyes that weep and see, my smile that frees, my fingers that reach and tickle, my mouth that prays and sings and laughs, my heart that beats devotion even after shattering to pieces...
I want to hear only truth NOW...I want to never encounter cowardice...I want to be treated with decency and compassion NOW...I DESERVE NO LESS...I'm tired of being shorted...I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired....I'm so tired....I feel disdain burning in my belly for all those who have harmed me recently and I want to destroy it, but they haven't given me one good reason to do away with it. I've tried and everytime I do, they do things to make me feel as though I made a mistake. I'm clearly giving them more energy than they deserve...what's that about? It's over...no more. You wanna know me? Prove it. That's my approach from here on out.
I am love, therefore I am divine, and I'm no longer available to those that do not behave as though they know that...Love is filled with faith and it begins and ends with the divine...It is ethereal and gritty and so important and delicate that it deserves to be handled with care and grace. Goodbye to ugly ways and foul intent because love lives here and she won't leave without a fight.
So, if you are ready for love, bury me deep into your soul, spread me thin over your skin, share me not with those unworthy, keep me near you now, hug me through trials and I'll make you peaceful and still, see me and I'll make the future uncertain seem promising and clear, hear me and I'll whisper, holler, sing, purr love's prayers into your weary soul, know me and touch what your heart knows as true, love me deep and unconditionally and discover that heaven is real...Love, I have returned...I am here...I am home...
