I don't wanna go to work today...
It's overcast and I'm cloudy. There is a very distinct feeling of restlessness invading my daily routine. I have mapped out my daily processes and it's very clear what it is that I am supposed to be doing from day to day...I'm failing at following my own plan. I feel stuck and I ache because of it. I had a groove towards the end of last year...more like a proactive, productive, Ayana-fied swagger....not really sure where that went. I am very sure that I want it back though. I miss having such a clear purpose for everyday...a clear and definite commitment to myself or, at the very least, to the things that make me happy. *sigh* It's an unwelcomed floating that I'm experiencing. It's gnawing at my ankles and I need to wake up tomorrow or even today with a remedy. Troublesome...this energy is off. This is NOT what's up...this is what's down.I drank lots of water today....red, black, and green star for me!
I had a very difficult and necessary conversation with someone last week. It turned out better than I expected and I'm happy about that. Now, I'm open to receiving some more goodness from some different outlets...I did the right thing, and since I truly believe that karma has a front row seat, I am thinking some juicy goodness is on it's way to me. Hooray!
I wore one of the many necklaces my mama bought me today...she'd be happy to know and/or see that!
I voted today...very mixed feelings about it. From the beginning of my voting experience, I've found myself having to pick between the lesser of two evils. The same reigned true today...*sigh*...The first time I was eligible to vote was in 2000...the first cursed Bush fiasco. It has negatively colored my ideas about democracy, freedom, racism, America...and quite frankly about anyone in any real position of power and/or privilege.
Okay, that's enough. I hope I can shake myself out of this stagnation...I'm soooo over it.
Ayana
posted by The Funky Fly Fresh Goddess @ 2/05/2008 04:48:00 PM
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